I finally found out why

So I’ve been sitting here thinking about why I go to movies alone, hate just the idea about being around people and hate women in general. It’s called a life experience, and I’ve had many of these.

As for my way of relationships. Lets just say, I have been single and alone for 3 years now. I can’t help to think I’m going to end up that rich lonely bachelor, who never gets married and never has kids. It’s a fear that I deal with every day. Another problem I have is the lack of emotion I have for many things, I never cry, I hardly smile, I don’t frown, I just have this cold, dead look in my face. This look is hardly broken with a smile, and wish it would.

I just want to be happy, but it seems that day is either way down the road, or non-exsitent.